My father was getting on me again tonight, he means well, but it all just feels he hopeless. He wants to know why I don't go back to school. It's not that easy I tell him, someone has to be able to watch Alex at night in order for me to go back to school, and although he says he will do it, I know that is not always possible and professors don't understand that my daddy is too busy to babysit. My ability to have a babysitter has always depended on the whims of my family. It doesn't matter if it's for work or pleasure.
I'm trying so hard to get my life in order, but's it's like that old saying, I take one step forward and two steps back. I would love to finish school. To be honest never in my wildest dreams did I imagine that at 26 years old I'd be sitting less than a year away from a teaching degree and completely stuck. Most of the time I work as a teaching assistant or even as a substitute. sometimes I do crisis intervention, other times I do one on one tutoring. I work in education like I've always wanted, but what I am qualified to do doesn't pay all my bills. On the bright side I have great health insurance (as evidenced by my recent surgery). I guess I always thought that by the age I am now I would have a career, a home, and a family. I guess I fell off that path somewhere along the way.
I have some amazing friends right now. I've never felt like people who weren't related to me cared so much. *S* took me to the hospital for my surgery, she stayed for the entire procedure. She took care of me, at her house for the next two day. ~T~ Came to the hospital as well, he also came back to the house and helped *S*. He brought me lunch and dinner, he calls and texts me all the time just to check on me. (V) helped take care of me too, he entertains me and calls me randomly, when I least expect it, just to see if I'm okay. And
