Today it hit me that Anna's second birthday is in three days... I can't belive it's been two years since my little angel came and went so quickly. I called my father, I don't know what I was hoping for, but when I reminded him of the upcoming date, I felt as if he was brushing me off, I know he doesn't mean to, I guess he just doesn't do emotional stuff, or he really was busy with work. I know my father loves me, I guess it's just hard for him. My sister didn't do any better, I guess we just aren't that type of family.
I've cried a couple times today. I just remember her looking up at me, and then her eyes closed and she kinda sighed and then I knew she was gone. I didn't need a doctor to tell me, I felt my heart break in that moment, a part of my heart had left this earth.
I can't stop crying, I need to pull it together, for my own sake, and for Alex's sake. This can't be healthy, but I feel as if I am not quite done greiving.
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